I'm embrassing Poulo Coelho, but I might not like the Al Chemist.
Yes, prejudice die hard.
Why you like the Al Chemist so much?

Gift of Life

There are a lot of people I met, taught me things.

But there are few that touched and inspired me along the way.

There is a sister, which is so close to me that in a way want to share everything, her ups and downs in life. Instead, she taught me everything. Maybe, she is the sister that Allah gave to keep me company for the lost of my own. Because He always knows that I’m not that strong as they see me.

I admire her in many ways. Her patient, persistent, strength, passionate and unconditional loves for all that evolve around her. In my eyes, she have done it par excellent as what a contemporary women can do. She is a mother, a worker, a wife, a friend, a sister and you name it. She has fulfilled with grace and tenderness. I don't know if I get the oppurtunity, I can do the same.

But one thing that inspired me most, her sincerity. Her sincerity towards Allah is the drive, so she moves on every single day without showing any sign of tiredness. Although she suffers when her prayers has not yet granted, but she never stop praying. Instead, she always has the smile that will make me smile too. Like sunshine for every single day, even it rain the sun still there to shine.

But I’m the one that have been exhausted all this while. Am I not sincere enough?

She is the servant of God, a miraculous being that has been destined to me as an acquaintance to learn on how a servant should be and behave.

I watched her everyday with envy and at the same time love.

Yes, I love her no doubt. I know, she loves me like a sister loves her own sibling. What is most rewarding, she trust me undeniably. That is a wonderful feeling especially to be trust from a person like her.

I hope her prayers will be granted soon. Everyday she will remind me to pray for her. Surprisingly, she never escapes from my thought especially when I take my time to pray. Even, I’m an absentminded person.

She is a gift, at the beginning Allah sends me here. As He always knows what my future will be and what are the absences that will meet me.

I hope I can understand. I hope He will make me understand. These are His promises.

Then I will find my path.

InsyaAllah.

I hope you too will meet a friend which can teach so many things, especially to survive a game that we call life :)

Hope

Hope is a waking dream ~aristotle~

what ever happen
just hope
you'll know
you're still alive!

Lost

when you can't find
anything, anyone
even
your own self...

Sorrow

when there is nothing left to feel
except
emptiness

Lesson

Most of us believe that lesson is the things that we can get from formal class. I'm too believe the same before, but for some years know it has changed.

Yes, teacher will teach us the way to solve problems in class. They show us how to do math, science, languange and the list is on.

True teacher to me, is the one that provide lesson to survive life and choose what is the best.

Of course we are aiming to become among those who are at the top, with flying colours and we get praise of it. I am too dreaming the same. Always strive to become one. But when the examination is over, the result came, that is. The role of teachers and me as students has ended there.

But now it different. I learn because there was a teacher that told me if you can't find the way out, please refer to someone expert which can show you the way out.

It different now because once a teacher told me that results isn't everything. It is the processes that you have learned. When you find your stand and method to eliminate or minimize error, than you work will be perfected.

It has changed since, when a teacher told me, that life is about to make a choice, and you are the one who will make it, the consequence is result from the act. You can't blame anyone for that.

I've got the different view, when a teacher told me, if you have strive hard, you give all the effort that you can give, you give it all, prayed and stedfast but still things have turn out bad. You have to take it as trials. Be patient and pray to have strong heart, because when you succeed you will get bounty beyond your imagination. You might not have it here, but the teacher told me, "I'm sure you will get it, There!"

Good results is one thing,

but the best is,

when you get lesson that help you get through life from it, wether it is good or vice versa!

Reviving the Hope!

It a long way. My friend said that my bridge span might longer than others. I'm thinking, will I see what are on the other side of the bridge? She then said, "InsyaAllah, just place you faith and trust. Right now, just drive on and enjoy the beautiful scenary and the mystery of colour blend that changed everyday!"

What my friend doesn't know, faith is something that can't enter heart just by saying, or by a good words, advise and reasoning. It might need interference from high above that allow you to have conviction on thing.

I learn to revive hope from the saying of Said Bediuzzaman An Nursi.

He is a scholar which is not familiar to me before, but an email change everything. I should consider Nursi's work to be one of my collection item. His famous work known as Rasail An Nur. Someday I will get it, InsyaAllah.

Only Allah knows, what Nursi's gone through in his life. He witness the collapsed of Ottoman Empire, see the rising secular state of Turkey lead by Attarturk. He also witnessed the rising of Zionist to reclaimed Israel and Jurussalem has been taken by the new order of crusaders. The words heartbroken will not suit for the devastating defeat of Islamic caliphate. The Islamic community back to that years never experienced a world without a leader. Islamic Leader which unite ummah together. Islam has been scattered to pieces. Nations are built base on national and race agenda, not for the religion and to uphold the Soveriegnity of Allah The All Mighty.

And we are now the results of the failure to uphold the true teaching of Islam.

Have Nursi loose hope then? No, in his heart he has the conviction that Islam will triumph over the decandent and despostic system which is now taking lead. Even he experienced the WWI and WWII where they have conclude it is the sun set of Islamic rulling. Even he see the ummah have weaken in every aspects of life including the faith in their own religion!

Nursi has never loose hope to see Islam will one day get back on track. He has the faith because it promised by God Himself.

In one occassion when a person told him, it is the end. "The Islamic world is all broken up and fragmented."

What Nursi said?

They are not gone. "They have gone to study. It is like this; India is an able son of Islam; it is studying in the high school of the British. Egypt is a clever son of Islam; it is taking lessons in the British school of civil servants. Caucasia and Turkestan are two valiant sons of Islam; they are trainning in the Russian war academy. And so on. You see, after these noble sons of Islam have received their diplomas each will lead a continent, and waving the banner of Islam, their just and mighty father on the horizons of perfection, they will proclaim the mystery of pre-eternal wisdom inherent in mankind in the view of pre-eternal devine determining and in the face of obstinate fate."

If Nursi live, he might be a Professor of Professors. He has the faith.

The bridge might be long, but it always has an end. I now know.

Nursi has the conviction, why not me?