If people
ask me for an advice, I will tell them to be grateful. No matter the life that
you live in, whether it is happy or sad, just be thankful. Although you are
surrounded with a lot of people or alone, be thankful. The thing that matter is
you still alive, which mean you are given, chance to change things. Though you
can’t change anything, at least you have time, space and chance to repent.
I’m grateful
of many things. The first and foremost is my family. They support me with the
most precious thing in this world which is unconditional love.
The second
is my teachers, all of them. They set good exemplar for me, so that I can
follow them. They are the people of virtues and actions, so it is easier for me
to verify rights and wrongs. No doubt, they also love me so that I’m blessed
along the way. O God, bless them here and hereafter.
The third is
my friends. Most of the time they act both like my family and teachers. Some of
them are so wonderful that I can’t describe by using words.
This is the
month of Ramadhan, and I can’t stop thinking about them. My friends know me as
person that always depends on intellectual to make abstraction. Only then I can
reason and make logical points so that I can contemplate for good virtues. Yes,
I’m a person of senses, science and analytical thinking. But this Ramadhan is
special, my friend shows me the other path that I can acquired knowledge. That
is from the heart.
I do not
know how to describe, this one special friend of mine. We are acquaintances
actually, we don’t even attach as much. But God always find His way so that we
can have the time of our own. We’ve been friend to each other for 7 years, but
believe me; I can count how many time we actually met.
Every time I
got the opportunity to meet her, we can sit there all day long for a cup of
coffee or tea. The topics of our discussion vary, deep and always inspired, no
doubt. She always left me with things that I need to ponder for month sometime
years.
Now, as
years goes by, the only medium that I can ‘see’ her is through email which will
only came once in a while.
Even so, the
attachment is so strong because I can feel her present most of the time,
including my important journey (i.e: my pilgrimage). She too feels the same.
One day she
wrote, “Sometimes I feel that you are like part of me, the part that strengthen
my hope, pray and dream. Maybe because we are used to put good words, good
ways, exchange of good ideas and encourage good deeds that nourish our heart
and soul.”
Weird, that
is the same things that I think of her.
Now I
involve with Teach for the Needs (TFTN), the non-profit education activism
which have started on March. She supports me without question even I still
don’t have time to bring her along to participate in our activities. The thing
that brings me to tears was she donated a lot of money to support our course
without asking anything at all.
I told her,
“You’re too generous.”
Then she
replied, “actually not that generous, trying to believe that the best sadakah
is when we have few to give.”
She had few,
but then again she donates a lots! I can’t comprehend till now.
She taught
me other way to gain knowledge, which is by using our own heart. She is not
just saying, but act; the lesson that I have long forget.
*The heart
can shows you two ways of learning. The first is the things that you can
reflect from senses, but there is no action yet to be involved. In Arabic this
experience is called istiqra’ or inductive of a posteriori reasoning in the
parlance of logic.
The second
is when action is already involved, it is called experiment and experience
(Arabic: tajribah).
She taught me both. Istiqra’ helps me to
understand hyphothetical or speculative value, and tajribah has affirmative or
demonstrative value. This is the highest order of seeing beauty in all of
things, for that I thank God for everything.
Then I read
Surah Al Shams 91: 1-10
God Himself
swears by using this Ayat, “By the soul’s and Him who fashioned it, and
inspired it with its virtues and vices. One who purifies it is felicitous, and
one who betrays it fails.”
I’m very
much grateful to God who give me this lesson and at the same time model to
follow. I pray she will be given Equilibrium Soul, of course all of us.
Thank God
for everything and guide us to purify our soul.
*Notes taken from book.